I fear life. I really do. Sometimes...well, most of the times, I fear death less than life. Dying can be quick, easy, just a fast way to get things over with and forget... however it's that throbbing feeling where you're just wondering, 'Just how do I get myself to get killed though? Poison...?' I mean, stabbing yourself is painful (with a knife or some other pointy, shiny object). Suicide... it just doesn't work.

I'd like to put myself to Death's door by drinking some sweet liquid, and when I fall asleep, it's when I stop breathing, unnoticed. Quick, easy, and a superb way to get things over with.

Well, why am I talking about this? Yeah, part of me wants it. Why?

Report Cards...

Yeah, dumbfuck stupid waste of reports that are to be delivered home. *Sigh* My average, I'm predicting, is either the same as the first term, or better. I've concluded that it's the probably the same. Shit.

I don't have school today or tomorrow. Today, there was a ski trip. A lot of people didn't bother to go because 1)it's cold outside or 2)they just don't have skiing skills. For me, it's because of 3)your friends aren't going because they just choose not to and you don't want to go by yourself. Really, if different classes could be paired together, then that's a different story, because Beatrice and I would've gone, but we were in different classes for gym. But today looked like a nice sunny day to go skiing...oh well, I missed my chance. Tomorrow, there's a PA day so, yeah. But it makes up for Saturday since my dad is staying home on Saturday. Usually, he stays home on Monday and go to work on Saturday, but my mom was in need of his aid on Monday for something.

I'm really confused. So, yeah, there's guy A, B, and C. I liked guy A, and I told myself to let go of him, but damn, he's hawt. No, I'm not shallow, because I suppose his personality is good too.

You're thinking I'm just going for his hawtness? So sue me.

Anyways, I think I like guy B...because he's just hilarious and extremely adorable. He's always entertaining and always in for a good laugh. He also loves to tease me about the most random and pointless things. Guy C... Maybe I'm being self-absorbant or just my instincts tells me I'm such an irrisistable female that's been walking on Earth for 14 years...but I think he likes me. He's been interacting with me more, talking with me more, constantly chatting with me on MSN, stealing my homework for a humor basis, and just about everything that makes you think, 'Gee! I think I figured out Blue's Clues! He likes me!'. He's really cute and all, but...I sometimes think he's a bit tad strange? Well, strange isn't the word, it's just, I'm not comfortable with him...since I don't know him well. Mind you, guy A, B, and C are all friends with my good friend, Lauren. She's friends with almost all the grade 9 guys in Humberside. ^_^ No, she's not the walking whore, she's just extremely friendly and hilarious. Very laid back and all, and everything is just peachy in a day's work...

Riiiight. So anyway, it's been cold. There's snow *finally* but just a little. Hell, there wasn't even enough snow on Christmas or New Years. In fact, it was warm. o_O Is it Global Warming?

Beatrice is strange sometimes. We were sitting against a wall, legs stretched out infront. Then, all of a sudden she beckons me to stand up, so I did. Then she stood beside and measured something between us. She looked at me and said that my legs are almost as long as hers by maybe 2-3 inches, yet she's taller than me by like, 10 inches. I ...reckon having long legs is...bad? I was later informed that no, it wasn't. It was a very good thing. Like, it'd come in handy to become a model.

Meh. *Flattered*

I think I'll retrieve some food. Bye.

I blog with a story... ^_^            If you haven't noticed by briefly glancing, the characters are from the extremely popular and awesome series, Naruto.

Delicate Blossom

All hail to Masashi Kishimoto! Why? Because the characters in this story belong to him, that's why!

Pairing: KakaxSaku

Summary: A cherry blossom links two lovers together at dawn.

A/N: Sakura is about… 20 years old in this story.

It was a warm, sunny day in Konoha. It was pretty quiet too, for it was only at the break of dawn. You would think the people of the village would be sleeping, right? Well, a certain woman was walking around, and stopped as she took in the scenery of the park she was in. The trees were pink and white, for the cherry blossoms had bloomed quite beautifully. A flower descended slowly down at her. She quickly held out her small hands and caught the falling pink and white blossom gracefully, and her hands curled around it, her fingers stroking the smooth, soft petals. She brought it to her face, and inhaled the faint, sweet scent of the cherry blossom.

“So delicate and so beautiful…” She whispered to know one in particular.

“I’d say your name fits you well, then. Don’t you think, Sakura?”

The pink-haired woman whipped herself to the direction of the deep voice that belonged to the mysterious man, who was formally her sensei. Whilst holding the sakura, she smiled.

“You shouldn’t let your guard down, Sakura,” Just the way he said her name made her shiver in bliss. “If I were an enemy, I may have killed you.” As he lectured her, he sat down next to her, leaning on the tree. He felt her sat down beside him as well, her fingers still cradling the pink and white flower.

“Don’t you think it’s a bit too early to attack someone, Kakashi-sensei?”

“You can never be too sure of an adversary’s plans and ambitions.”

“I see. Speaking of attacking someone so early in the morning, what brings you here?”

“Ah, well, I could ask the same for you.”

Sakura’s eyes narrowed in slight annoyance. “I come here on a daily basis. To think about things.”

“Well, then, same here.”

She rolled her eyes, and Kakashi grinned under his mask.

A moment of silence passed by, both enjoying each other’s company. Sakura felt the summer breeze, and she inhaled the fresh air, her hair blowing along the direction of the wind. After a while, she sensed the silver-haired man’s gaze on her. Not knowing what his stare was intended for, she turned her face to him and stared back with mock written on her face, expecting him to turn away or smile back. However, he didn’t and she held her breath as he gently grasped the fragile flower from her hands and stroked it slowly against her left cheek, twirling the petals with his fingers. Sakura just gaped at him in slight shock and embarrassment. She didn’t know whether he was doing this for the fun of it, he was just being a pervert, or if he was trying to catch her off guard again as a training lesson and lecture her afterwards. Without thinking, Sakura caught her hands trailing to his silk, black mask, and felt time stop as she pulled it down. It was at his nose, and she sucked in a breath as she tugged it fully away to his neck. Before she could say anything, her lips were sealed as his mouth was over hers in a blink of a movement.

His kiss sent new sensations throughout her mind, body and soul. It was gentle. Soft, yet passionate. He tasted sweet, yet bitter. It was overwhelming. She felt as though she never wanted to let go. When he pulled away for air, she wrapped her arms around his neck and her eyes gazing into his, pleading for more. Kakashi smiled as he nuzzled her neck. Sakura bit back a small whimper. His hand rested on the side of her head, his fingers tucking the cherry blossom behind her ear.

“My delicate and beautiful…Sakura,” She blushed, not knowing what to say or do at his sudden movements and gentles whispers.

“Kakashi…”

Once again, before she could say anymore, he captured her mouth in a deep kiss.

The wind blew the branches of the trees swiftly, and the cherry blossoms soon began to descend soundlessly, surrounding the couple an aura of love within the atmosphere.

A/N: Cheesy, eh? I hope I didn't...you know...make anyone to want to stab this ficcie. Ehehehe...

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Naruto. Dubbed. *Yanks my hair off* GOD.

Anyway, yeah, you know, I wanna strangle my friends sometimes. (Hm, they don't use LJ...*Evil smirk*) You see, Beatrice loves Pete from Fall Out Boy. Yeah, her and Kamini are dancing off those abso-freakin'-lutely what's=so-great-about-those moves from Dance Dance (from FOB). I wonder.

Woooooow this girl got so wasted on this Green Day music video...

I discovered such a wonderful site. >=}
[ http://community.livejournal.com/ff_anbu ]

This guy won't shut up on my T.V.

Lately, I've been so tired...homework is such a fucked up creation. Sure, it helps us...but still! Stupid teachers...*Sigh*

Llamas and asparagus will rule the world. You don't think so? Go bitch off at Lauren. =]

Must downloads!:

The Dream that Time Dreams - Chrono Cross

Scar - Ayumi Hamasaki

Toshiro Masuda:

-Temujin

-Promise to a Dream

-An Old Dance

-Hinata vs Neji

Qian Tian Zhi Lian - F.I.R.

Yeah, I might upload those songs. ^_^ I feel like I'm acting as Deidara. Always goin' with the 'yeah'.